The Ray Of Hope Aashi...

I may not be perfect but one thing I know is that I m not so imperfect…I may not be the best girl in the world but I know that I am not the worst one…I may not be beautiful but for sure I m not ugly.. Then why do people hurt me? They think that they can walk over me like anything? Not everyone in this world is sensitive enough to understand anyone’s else’s feelings but atleast they should take care that someone may get hurt by their stupid jokes !.. A girl likes being thought of, above and before anyone else - ignorance is the most painful torture you can give her. Everything was going fine for the whole year but suddenly one day changes it all and that too in the end of the year …this really hurts believe me..!! Today was such an awesome day…But that 1 hour spoiled it all…!! When will people think before they speak? When would they start caring about other’s emotion? First they hurt you and then they come and have the audacity to say sorry? Do they actually mean it? If not then ...

Have you ever thought about the condition of a mother who has to go through an abortion , Who has to kill her child ,That child which she is carrying in her womb  , that child which when was diagnosed filled her with immense happiness and feeling of being complete ? She has to kill it just because it was *her* not *him* ,just because few orthodox people including her own family and unfortunately her own husband wants a male child ? No na , you mustn’t have thought about this. Perhaps because you are not a mother ? You are not a female ,you too believe in the same or you don’t have time to think so. ? Right ? -Aashi Diary of a To-Be-Mother I was so happy with the news of your arrival. Was counting each and every day left for those 9 months to be over , I couldn’t stop myself from imagining the happiness we would get when we will hold you in our arms. You are special to us . We didn’t know what you were to be , a male or a female , but one thing that I knew was,  ou...

Sometimes we do something which we don’t wanna do…we cannot control things…!! We don’t even have the answers to our own questions…Sometimes letting go is the only way…u cannot help even yourself. Ur anger turns into tears and u don’t even realize that… why? There is no answer for ‘why’ sometimes…sometimes u feel that life is good and the other time you feel that life is strange…? Your own friends seem to be strangers… Their silence hurts you more than their words!! You ignore their ignorance and still think that they love you...Sometimes even if u have many people to talk with you wait for your very special friend to talk with…you wait until he/she replies…. Sometimes situations even get worse if you say something or you don’t ... at some moments you wish that the time should stop while at others you wonder that when will they pass? Sometimes when you cry you don’t realize that why are you crying… you just remember the old bad moments and burst out….life seems to be strange !! ...

Now I try to be happy , make people around me happy so that they know that I have changed…I can not cry for the same reason again and again that’s why whenever I am hurt ..I cry!! People say that I am melodramatic or I over -react but now I don’t care!! I have moved on in life...now nobody can hurt me like they used to …all the credit goes to Mahi ‘my sister’ and my friends . I have a habit of hiding my feelings but whenever I feel low and depressed I utter out everything in front of Mahi di!! She encourages me and makes me feel better! I am trying to make friends and I am making…now I am no longer that old and depressed Anvita!! I am changed and I am happy to be changed…I enjoy this change! I have friends now... but the only difference is that I don’t share everything with them now...  I do tell them some aspects of my life but not all . Now I have started interacting with everyone and cleared out all the grudges … I try to adjust myself in their environment , and ya...

Marriage...a match made in heaven which is celebrated on earth. People who are born in two different environment and families are united and they form a family. It is not just a promise to be companions for lifetime, but a promise to be together beyond this life. It is a special bond that it shared between two souls. It is always said that a marriage completes two individuals, but actually, it completes two families. A marriage always transforms you, it changes you in a million ways and you seem to know about yourself too.Everyday is new, everyday has a different end, everyday, you evolve and that is what marriages do to you. The key to a successful and a happy marriage is understanding, respect, trust, commitment and togetherness, but the most important factor here is, love. Love for me always is a state of being. I feel when you are in love, you find yourself while trusting someone else, completely. The foundation of a marriage is love, whether it is arranged o...

Life seems to be a stranger. Actually, I don’t really know what life does, and how it does. I mean, I have never been the expecting types; all I wanted was the same things that common people love, but I guess I was wrong. Who knows what changes occur. I had my own share of experiences, my own happy as well as sad moments. Well, moving away has never been an issue, but I had been excited. Excited to move on and make new friends. There was pain of loosing the older ones, but more happiness to find new ones. Happiness shone in my eyes, Dreams soared in the sky. I had pretty much expectation, I had a firm determination. I still remember the first day, when I stepped in this school, with thousands of emotions, expectations, dreams and aspirations of making new friends. But maybe it’s the law of nature that one can’t remain happy for long. Surely, I made some friends, but they were fake. Whenever I said that I am alone , everybody used to say that they are t...