The Ray Of Hope Aashi...

'I see you reaching heights'.  Everybody said. 'But... I am afraid of heights. ' She said. She isn't afraid of heights,  she is afraid of not being able to reach there,  not being able to face everything that comes her way. She doesn't know how to face rejection, how to anticipate and plan for future,  she so much lives in her present. If she looks back,  10 years from now,  she couldn't even think of flying,  think of living the life she lives, dream big,  dream of working and earning her own life because her so called business class family thought that salary is a shame for the family,  going out to work is only for those who are needy and nobody desires to work for others.  They believe that everyone dreams of belonging to a business class and work for themselves.  It isn't like boys are supposed to work in an MNC and girls aren't. It is just that her family opposed of children moving out of their comfort zone and work for ot...

"Who will take care of her parents after she gets married?"  asked the society,  the so-called relatives and family members. "An independent,  strong woman" replied the daughter. Being a daughter, she understands the concern and also understands that things wouldn't be the same after she leaves,  but who promises that a son will always take care of her parents? Why can't she be a daughter,  a daughter in law,  a wife,  a mother,  all at the same time? Who says she can't play all the roles together and justify them? Why can't she be that source of support like a son is? She disregards the society's thoughts,  her parents too,  support her in all this. They have nurtured their daughter in this way.  Their values reflect in her.  They know that their daughter is more than a son to them.  They know that her marital status wouldn't change their existence in their daughter's life.  They know that she would prove to be t...

Just when you think that life is perfect , it gives you a hard kick and says ''You need to suffer more''. Just when you take a deep breathe and count your blessings , life says " Wait , I am all ready to give you a new , high voltage shock". Just when you think that all the drama in your life is over ,  life gives you bullshit. Just when you sit down on your sofa to have a cup of tea , peacefully,  life brings in a new turmoil that changes you completely. But isn't  all this a part of growing up? I don't  wish to sound completely  negative here because all I mean by saying all this is that life is challenging,  it keeps on changing and changes are a part of growing up.  I agree that you do need a break sometimes,  somewhere.  You do need that "thandi hawa ka jhoka" that brings in that freshness,  that rawness in your dull and monotonous life..  But m aybe these turmoils,  challenges,  these difficulties are that "chan...

I am a simple girl , agreed , but I am not a stupid one. I laugh at the jokes made on me , that is because I don't let others affect me but when it comes on my integrity , my honesty , my dignity , I don't spare anyone. You can't just walk over me and say that 'You are naive and you wouldn't understand' Yes, I don't lie .Yes , I don't fight.Yes, I don't drink. Yes. I have never tried a hukka. Yes. I don't hide anything from the people who have given birth to me . YES.I don't have a boyfriend. I don't party much. I don't interfere much. I am very old school in my thought process. I don't speak much. I don't crib. I don't play around with people . I try nothing to seek attention of the opposite gender. Is that being naive  ? Being innocent ? Being stupid ? If yes , Then I openly admit that I have all these qualities because I RESPECT MYSELF. This is what I know I should. I know what to do and how to do . I know how to speak...

22 June 2014 , 5:02 A.M. "I am sorry, she is no more" . The doctor said. It was 5 in the morning but for her , it was as dark and cold as a winter night. Tears rolled down her cheek , but before she could actually cry , she realized that she had to be strong ,stronger and the strongest. Now everything was well framed , she could now guess the reason behind that sleepless night , the reason behind her restlessness. It was not that she always slept peacefully but there was something in that night which made her restless , uneasy and kept her awake whole night. She could now know why she wanted to see her , sleep with her that night. She now knew why she longed and waited for the sun to rise so that she could go and see her . She knew that she couldn't respond back but she knew that she could hear her. Back to the reality, she just stood , trying to be normal , calm , composed and strong. She knew that she is their strength , a tear from her eyes would make them ...

''I am happy. I really am." She said in a very very convincing way. Everybody believed her. She was relieved. Was she really happy ? Was that conviction real ? That smile real ? Weren't things way too perfect ? Her smile way too radiant ? Her eyes way too bright ? Wasn't it like she was trying to convince ? Wasn't it a life she was faking ? Was all well? She says she is happy. She behaves in a way that forces everyone to believe that too but there was something , there was something in her eyes that shouted "It is not real". She was never like this. Everybody who knew her knew that she was strong but this strong ? Everybody knew that she was bubbly and talkative but then the way she is behaving is quite contradictory. She wasn't the person who had nothing to tell , nothing to share , nothing to crib or nothing to be happy about. She never overthought and now , there she is , with earphones in her ear , listening to songs and sitting in the cro...