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Acceptance.

As we grow in life, things that were very important become less important, people who we called friends become class mates, people who we shared our lives with in that very phase become lost friends and it all changes. It changes to a complete new level. Life takes a 360° turn with everything upside down. Moving to middle standards from pre primary, going to high school, moving on to college and then probably a job or a business. Before taking every step, there are so many apprehensions, problems, speculations and issues. What happens in the end is always beautiful. We all just over complicate things. When we step into any new phase, there are a set of people, apart from your family and constants, that become really really important. Their friendship, their presence and their choices influence yours. They might not belong to the same age group but that time, those set of people are everything you will ever need. You might even go on to ignore your constants for those people, it...

Friends Forever?

I really don't think I need the tag of being your best friend anymore'. She said and walked away,  this time fiercely. She didn't need any approval,  any request or any consent to be back with this friend again. She was over this person for once and for all. Facebook posts,  instagram statuses,  whatsapp statuses ... Everything acknowledged this friend's best friends... She searched for her name once,  she couldn't see it....The second time,  she had lesser hopes,  still she wanted to see it,  the third and the final time,  all her feelings evaporated with that buffering because she could feel she wasn't there. She didn't need this friend anymore because this person didn't need her. Why do people fail to understand  that caring is more important than showing that you care. Why do people fail in realising that loving is more important than keeping expectations. Why at all can't you understand,  realise and feel this silence,...

A Scar.

"How will you live with it?  I can't even imagine how difficult it would be for you to face others,  everyday. Your face,  it looks terrible. How did you fall? Were you riding a bike? Were you chatting on your phone?   You should have been more conscious. These scars are not going to get cured. You will always have them, there on your face. Maybe they would get lighter, after all science has so many alternatives. We will get you treated, but beta,   understand, you are a girl and your face does matter. Anyways, no worries beta,  everything would be fine,  we will get you treated.  You might not look that beautiful but you will be able to face people. Have trust in us." The relatives said. She was confused,  confused to the next level.  Were they concerned or were they mocking at her?  Were they worried or were they pulling her down? Her confidence, her self esteem, her life, right now, it was all just words. Just wor...

Confrontation?

You know,  sometimes,  somehow, you come across people who mean everything to you and sometimes,  you grow up with those people. Family,  traditions,  value,  ethics,  love, togetherness,  a child in India has to accept this since the very beginning of their life.  The day they take birth,  they are blessed with a family.  Family for some means only blood relations like the parents and siblings.  For some it includes grandparents too.  For someone it means the whole entire group.  For some it is their friends.  Friendship is a really strong word. When I  say I am friends with you,  you are a part of me and my family.  I tend to keep you above me, my self respect and my wishes. I guess that's where things take a wrong turn.  Your family,  friends, relatives etc do not deserve you on the cost of your self respect.  Yes,  at times we get attached to people,  people who do ...

What exactly matters.

Hmm,  so walking down the memory lane,  the best possible picture I can figure out is when I was a little girl with absolutely no aims,  no materialistic desires,  no worries and no deep thoughts. Now that I am stepping out of my teen years, which for people is the end of being or atleast acting as a carefree kid,  I really want to go back and know,  how and when did I grow up. Was it when I joined school or was it when I started going to school by my own? Was it when I dreamt of being a designer or was it when I chose to do Commerce with maths? Was it when I stopped cribbing for getting a mark or two less in the unit tests or was it when marks stopped affecting me? Was it when I decided to diet because people called me an elephant or was it when I decided to be me, raw and unfiltered? Was it when I told my parents how I felt or was it when I started having my own opinion? Was it when I started going places on my own or was it when I first drove my o...

Lag Jaa Gale...

Hey guys.  I am back with something but it isn't the regular posts I write. This is dedicated to a special someone in my life,  so it would be a mix of both the languages. "आँखों से फिर ये प्यार की बरसात हो ना हो शायद फिर इस जनम में मुलाक़ात हो ना हो" - Lag Jaa Gale Little did she know that the most favourite line of her most favourite song would become the reality of her life. Little did she know that the night that seemed way too long for her was actually the darkest of them all.  Little did she know that her grandmother too, was waiting for her tight hug, just like she was. Little did she know that 3 years back,  that w...

How green is the grass on the other side?

It is very easy to judge someone.  Reality hits you hard when you actually step into their shoes. You might even find those pair of shoes to be more comfortable than yours because probably you are habitual of wearing stilettos and they wear flats. The grass is always greener on the other side.  I have been told multiple number of times that I am super lucky,  not that I deny this fact but,  everyone has their story. You might not be a perfect child because you don't fulfill your parents expectations.  You might not be a matter of pride for them because you don't come under those Top 10 students in your class. You might feel you have everything, when actually,  you are very poor because you have no one to share those insecurities with.  You might not be loving enough for your lover.  You might not be caring enough for your siblings.  Your lover might feel that they love you more than you love them.  Your siblings might feel that you ar...

Perfect life?

"How do you define a perfect life?".  Everybody has different answers to this question.  Some define it as being happy, some being rich or some say being successful makes you live a perfect life.  But the question that always arises is... "Is having enough money,  an answer to all our needs and wants?" Well,  generally,  people say that money isn't everything,  but honestly,  I admit, I shamelessly say,  money to some extent shuts down our needs and wants... But on the same hand,  it increases our desires too. Anvita's pov Coming back to the topic.  A day or two back,  I was sitting with one of my friends,  I wanted to know her opinions about that perfect life... Because she too lives that "perfect" life,  according to everyone, but still,  her eyes always told me a different story.  I could always see that behind a rich, shopaholic, smart and confident woman,  there was a girl with 1 million insec...

Fear of being Judged?

You are not always how you wish to be.  You can't always behave in a manner,  people want you to.  You are not always that strong,  how you want yourself to be.  You aren't always that polite,  how it is in your nature. All this is natural.  You are human and you have feelings.  Some express, some don't.  That problem of not expressing somehow becomes an issue because people take it to be your attitude, your behavior, your nature and then they judge you.  They perceive your sometimes not so cool reactions to be your attitude. They judge you and make you a person who has zero value for others,  who is full of herself,  who has zero respect for someone's feelings and someone, someone  who they shouldn't invest their emotions in. Reality is far from this. It's just in the nature of some people to be patient and bear everything that comes along their way and respond in a same, monotonous way to everyone.  They just...

Is this what you want?

Last evening,  I was passing by a grocery store and then suddenly,  I got a call from my wife asking me to get some bread and butter. I,  as an obedient husband, went inside the store and picked up the things.  While I was on the billing counter,  I saw someone,  someone whose face and name haunted me in my entire college life,  someone who I actually disliked because that person always had an upper hand. I saw 'Advika'.  Advika was my childhood friend but that friendship changed into dislike when she started scoring higher than me,  yes,  scores mattered for me, that time. Advika and I shared a love-hate relationship where I admired her for sharing her notes with me but disliked her to my core for being the topper. I always came second and she always took away all the appreciation I dreamt off.  We were friends but only because I wanted her notes before examinations and she was friends with me because she was a lively soul. Befo...

Emotionally Challenged?

Not every person is very good at showing how they feel.  Not everyone is very vocal about their love. Not every body shows affection. Not everyone can be the same in front of people. Not showing how you feel doesn't make you strong enough to bear all that comes your way.  Not being vocal about your feelings doesn't make you emotionally challenged. Not showing affection nowhere means not being affectionate. Not being same in front of everyone doesn't imply that you have dual faces. It is just a person's personal way of being.  You cannot force someone to be more expressive,  more sad on parting, more happy on meeting, more social, more loving or more vocal about how they feel about you or what you mean to them, for that matter. Some people just like certain things but they prefer staying out of it.  Some people live in present, they enjoy themselves the way they are, they miss people but they don't necessarily crib over it.  They don't show that b...