Dreams or Destiny.

Nothing can explain what you go through when you miss that mark. No matter how much you earn in a journey, in terms of relationships, people, trust, love and affection, sometimes, you need an extra push that helps you reach your destination...and no matter how good you were throughout, if you miss that finish point, things seem irrelevant.
There are so many instances where little things affect us. There are a hundred things that affects us, as an individual, but very few that leave an everlasting effect on us.
Happiness is a state of being and you can only be  happy,truly, when you are in your normal state.
Things that seem very trivial to others might break you down as a person. Your dream is yours, the desire to fulfill this dream can never be explained in words and someday, if that dream breaks, it shatters you. You don't have to necessarily explain everyone why that 'trivial issue' affects you.
The day that dream breaks, all your efforts to fulfill that dream holds no importance in your life. No matter how much you try to convince yourself that you weren't at fault, you tend to blame ourself. And, it is okay to feel miserable somedays.
Not everyday you can wake up and pretend to be normal. It is okay to look into the mirror and cry about an unfulfilled dream. Your dream was yours, even if it was of achieving something materialistic or unrealistic, for that matter.
No one can understand how it feels to let go of that feeling of not being able to be there.
No one can understand how it feels like to miss something by just a step.
No one can understand how it feels like to wake up to a reality that wasn't anticipated.
No one has lived your dream like you did.
And honestly, no one should. Your emotions should be best understood by you.
Not saying that it is forever that you will live with the guilt of not being good enough or breaking your own dreams, it is just that few things, no matter what, never leave your heart and mind.
If you cry and wake up to the same situation the next day,then, somehow, it has an effect on you that shall last long.
Do whatever it takes to get out of it. It takes alot of time, sometimes even years, but eventually, things become less painful and their effect  on you is less.
So, the best way to is acknowledge that feeling. Accept yourself and the reality. If something didn't happen, it was meant to be.
When that dream bubble pops, you get disappointed, but honestly, everything that happens, happens for a reason. You might not find a positive aspect today, but tomorrow, when you look back, you will see the bright side.
#TheRayOfHopeAashi ❤️